Thursday, August 4, 2011


The alarm blasted on at 5:30 this morning to rouse me for my run. Having gone to bed at almost midnight, I promptly hit the snooze button and immediately fell back asleep. When it came on again 10 minutes later, I turned it off completely, and the battle commenced within my head. 

"I don't want to run."

"I should get up and run."

"I'm tired - I want to go back to sleep."

"I should go run."

"No, I think I'll just stay in bed. Maybe I'll run tonight, or definitely tomorrow morning."

"Hmmm, ok that sounds good."

And yet, ten minutes later, I got myself out of bed. And into my running clothes. And, eventually, out on the street. I did my four miles, and it went well. On the way back as I was running, I remembered that I had almost stayed in bed. I smiled and thought "And now I'm almost done, and I feel good, and now I don't have to worry about doing it later. Which I probably wouldn't have." This Morgan is not the Morgan I am used to. That Morgan would have stayed in bed, skipped the run, felt guilty all day, and never have made it up. As I thought about it, I identified a few more ways in which I have changed.

I miss my chickens - fresh eggs are the best.

I eat eggs. I have been disgusted by eggs since I left my childhood (I ate them when I was little, but at some point that stopped.) I don't like fried eggs very much, but I am all for a good scramble filled with eggs and veggies.

I eat bananas. I have always had a texture issue with them. The only way I ever ate them was on toast with some peanut butter, and even then it was few and far between. But lately I have been forcing past the gag reflex and eating them, before running or after, and it is going pretty well. They have to be just the right ripeness or I have a real problem, but for the most part it is fine.

I also eat oatmeal. When I was a kid, I hated oatmeal. It made me feel like throwing up. My dad's girlfriend at the time, who was not a nice person, used to make oatmeal pretty frequently. When I would gag while eating it, she would tell me, in all seriousness, that if I threw up in it, I was going to have to eat that too. So even as an adult I have loathed oatmeal. But when I started trying to lose weight and working out, I kept reading about how good oatmeal is for you and so on. So I started eating it, a little at a time with different tweakings, until I was over the immediate gag that came from the memories of my childhood. Now I like steel cut oats, and I don't even need brown sugar to eat them (although I do love it that way - and sprinkle some in from time to time as a treat.) 

I know that I have probably changed in a lot of other ways too, but the eating and exercise is the easiest to see. I have cut out sugars for the last little while, and the scale shows that I am down 2.8 pounds as of this morning. It is nice to feel like I am on a roll again. I hope everyone else is doing well too!


  1. Nice job! You should be proud of yourself!

  2. great job on the run...I too eat a banana before working out. It keeps me from losing steam halfway through my workout. Next th ing you know, you will be an Keep up the good work.

  3. Good for you! I admire your perseverence. I am a chronic procrastinator and snooze hitter. Also, I'm loving the blog background! And, as an on-again, off-again conniseur of oatmeal, I have to say that some of my favorite morning meals lately has been oatmeal with agave nectar as a sweetener, mix it all with about a tablespoon of peanut butter and top with sliced bananas. It's a little funky at first, but you get your protein, fruit, etc all in one and I love it :) Better for winter time, but you should definitely give it a try!